Doctors and cute babies

I am the type of person who DESPISES going to the doctor.

Not because I am afraid or anything like that

just because I really only go for things that seem "major"

and I always seem to get the, "we can't figure it out" answer...

IT DRIVES ME NUTS.

Well, I really need to make myself a doctor appointment.

For real.

Im so worried about my back.

I have had back problems since I can remember (seriously)

and then I got pregnant and get got worse...

which is something I suspected.

What I DIDN'T suspect is that it would get worse AFTER i had Gianna!

It gets worse every day

It's a weird pain

It feels like someone is hanging on my shoulders from behind and is "scrunching" down my spine! :(

uhg, Im worried

and I swear if the doc takes x-rays and goes through all of that crap and tells me there is nothing wrong, that I will have to burn his practice down

(ok ok...that might be a little extreme)

I also have some weird nutrition deficiency or something

It's been going on for years

I feel like I need to eat every 2 hours or i get SERIOUSLY dizzy and weak and shaky...

But I dont have diabetes and im not hypoglycemic ...etc... (they have tested for everything)

then I asked to be tested for Siliac Sprue because my dad has it (wheat allergy...aka Gluten allergy)

but I dont have that either

SO WHAT THE CRAP IS WRONG WITH ME?!

The last doctor said, "You are perfectly healthy, I couldnt make something up if I tried"

...WHAT?! how is that possible?!

I take vitamins...and no, i dont always eat healthy, but even when I DO, this happens!

no matter what I go in for, they always seem to say, "it must be stress"

uhg...its not stress. Something is freaking wrong with me!

Anyways, today i HAD it.

I had a hard time holding Gianna while standing up and I thought to myself, "what if i got pregnant again!? It would only get worse!"

I want to be able to play and run around with my kids...

LET ALONE TO HOLD THEM..

uhg...

ok ok....im done venting

here are some pictures from Gianna's day today :)

Happy Monday! :)

First time in the big girl swing :)

First time in Johnny Jump Up

(She can hold her head up perfectly now! its amazing!)

sleepy girl in her baby swing

annnnd not a happy girl

but standing!